can you really blame me?

You know... sometimes people tell me that I'm being too insensitive at times and my words are crude, mean, sharper than a ninja's sword, fatter than lard as well as all sort of other unpleasant things. Especially being too frank at times.

Consider this, everytime I do something that I know I am not excellent at, people would come and knock me down. I HATED it. Everytime. I don't get it. Why must people always do that to me? So what if I'm not so good at something? Must you really come and embarass me in front of everyone? Is it necessary? IS IT???

Maybe you do that to keep my head level in check and prevent it from bloating up but it's definitely not the right way. It's not like I made any mistake. It's really not necessary. So, stop it! If you don't want to, fine. You are just gonna keep on pushing me right till the edge and then I will snap. If I do snap, I will in turn become the bad guy who couldnt control himself. The evil little man that everyone will despise.

So, whatever it is, I'm still in a lose-lose situation. Whatever my course of action is or will be, I will still lose. Guess I can't do anything about it. If you're reading this, which I am 100% sure you will never, my words to you is this:

Sod off and leave me alone.
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Guess I really have to do that once in a while to keep my psycho level in check. After all that, can you really blame me?

back

I'm not back from the Family Camp and I think it was a lot fun. I got to check out lots of a cool nature stuff like how awesome the beach can be as well as the chance to hang out at a very beautiful island about 10-15 minutes off the mainland. I will try to get pictures from Paulus and put them up here.

Anyway, now that I'm back as well as the lads of Kitchen Utensils, we're gonna have a recording session soon; probably this Friday.

Wish us luck.

Kitchen Utensil's demo songs

Alright, here are the promised songs that the band did so far. I'm afraid this is the most I can put up since the band didn't want me to put up the full songs. Anyway, here's a small(literally) insight of how we sound like and the kind of songs that we write.







Hope you'll enjoy them and there will be more in the future from the pots and pans of Kitchen Utensils! :)

bumble-foot guitar

Someone please get me a spoon to gorge my eyes out. This is called the "Bumble-foot Guitar".






Oh dear....

cuas cover

Yep, it is official. Mucho gracias to senor David for this fine piece of art:



Click on it to enlarge it and bask in the awesomeness of David's photoshop mad-skillz. David agreed to let us use it as our cover for our coming 'album' although I haven't really discuss about this matter with the lads yet. Yes, I will, soon enough.

And again, thanks again, senor David!

sigh...

Well, Arsenal may have lost the Champions League Final to Barcheatalona but at least they went down fighting. They went down not because they were outclassed by the "top favs", Barcheatalona but because the men in black strips were playing for them as well. Much injustice but goons will always know that the gunners are gonna come back stronger next year.

Anyway, with that out of the way, let's talk a bit about my week.

It's been really great so far. The seniors did a great job for the orientation and I had a lot of fun. Too bad some bozo just have to ruin everything by an act of disgrace, that is to steal. Seriously, that was low, man... To steal something off another poor soul while everyone else wasn't watching because they're at the field is just low. I'm not sure if you could get even lower than that since it's lower than dirt already. Sucks be to you, thief.

I hope the gap between the seniors and the juniors that has been bridged together through these few days of orientation isn't affected or strained. Else it would be a shame, really.

Yeah, it makes me sad.

dave-o

dave-o :: says:
i very much prefer ur(kitchen utensil) style than say.... sonic edge or that altered frequency schmequency

Thanks for your time listening to God Who Never Sleeps and What You Want Me To while you're in the university's LIBRARY. Thanks, man :)

More on Form 6 and the little sea-monkey buggers in the future.

It's not easy to be, alright! ;)

doing the right thing

Just recently I had the opportunity to go out for supper with a couple of guys and we talked about many things and one of the most important thing that we talked about is: doing the RIGHT thing.

I think this whole idea of 'doing the right thing' is very subjective. Something that is right for me doesn't necessarily be right for you. For example, a person might have to eat 3 tons of chocolate a day to combat some kind of strange and unknown disease and that would be the 'right thing to do' for him/her whereas for diabetic patient, that would be a death wish.

With that out of the way, I realised that all of us struggle to do the right thing everyday. Right now, at this period of my life, I must start to put things in their place by putting my priorities RIGHT as in the really CORRECT order of priorities instead of the biased one. Sounds confusing? It is... for me, at least.

Let's talk about the biased one first. I know everyone should put God first in their life and I agree with that whole-heartedly. But the thing that I'm having gripes with is this: many people misunderstood the meaning of putting God first in their life. Here is what putting God first is NOT:

1. Going forward and commit oneself to serving and doing stuff in YF eventhough one knows that one couldn't possibly handle it.
2. Pushing on and do things in YF 'for God' eventhough one's parents have said NO MORE.
3. Using YF as a reason to force other priorities off the list... for e.g. Studies, friends, family, etc...

Here is what putting God first should be like:

1. Studying His Word instead of goofing off doing something else when the opportunity arises.
2. Attending YF and Church instead of going off to some places that one don't really HAVE to go.

I think it's true that we humans are creatures who yearns for approval of others. Because of that, we want to do things that OTHERS thing is right and because of that, we don't do things that are truly right for us.

With that I shall end this post and I urge all of you to rethink every single decisions that you have made and you're going to make. Please think carefully if what you are doing or what you will be doing is right.

kitchen utensils - cooking up a storm

More to come in the future. Stay tuned.

sea-monkeys II

As promised, I dumped in the eggs today after church and these little buggers hatch instantly. I have to leave these little buggers alone till the 5th day and THEN the feeding starts. I think by then those stuff would be a lot bigger already since they are really really tiny at the moment and one can't see much right now. They are probably the size of the period at the end of this sentence. Yeah, it's that small. Anyway, bring on the pics!


Here is the aquarium 24 hours after the water purifier's been added. They look the same as before but the water does smell funky. Like... salt.


BEHOLD! Le Eggs.


Blah... blah.. blah.


I'm not sure if these are suppose to be the eggs cause they look like the contents of Packet 1.


Ah, well. What the heck. Off it goes into the aquarium.


It looks a bit greenish and murky at first.


After a while and a little stirring, IT IS ALIVE!!!

*cue the Frankenstein theme*

sea monkeys

I went to JB with my family yesterday and like all little kiddies, I got excited with the prospect of going to Toys 'R Us. I tell you, never in my life have I got so excited and nostalgic about all these toys in my life. I see all these little Batman figurines and they reminded me of the one my mom bought me years ago(it's in my room, still). That aside, I also a kickass Darth Vader mask that one can wear and change ones voice to that of Mr. Darth "I-can-kick-your-butt-faster-than-you-can-say-'Yoda'" Vader. It was so awesome. All that for RM189.00. Hmm...

I also saw a couple of Star Wars die-cast metal action figures that are poseable and comes with a display case. Guess what? Mr. Darth "I-can-still-kick-your-butt-faster-than-you-can-say-whatever-you-want-to-say" Vader got a display case of his own too. And it's going off the shelves really fast. All that for RM89.00. Double hmm...

I took my brother along for him to bask in the joy and wonder of toys all around him(yes, he wants EVERYTHING... SO DO I!). Then we came to this section that sells Sea-Monkeys. They looked super-cute(no, you did NOT just hear that from me) and they come in all sorts of different 'aquariums'. From the simplest(and cheapest) Ocean Zoo to Deep Sea Pirate Ship to Sea Monkeys in Mars. Really really awesome. Since I'm with a kid, all things awesome such as this would defiinitely excite a kid(not to mention another big kid too). My brother bugged me for quite a while saying he really really really wanted it but my mom won't let saying it's too expensive... they die fast... yadda... yadda.. yadda.

Like all obedient children, Yi Wan and I went and bought it anyway. :D Turns out that Sea Monkeys are not quite that easy to grow. Maybe my little science brain tells me that I HAVE to take of these little buggers with all the science theories in mind(temperature, density, gravity, plasma cannon, rocket fuel, nuclear reactor...) and they looked tedious and boring. So, I went on and tried to look at things through the eyes of a six-year-old.

Today's the first day and as the days go by I will document them here. Anyway, for the first day, all we have to do is to clean the aquarium and add the water purifier to prepare the medium for the little buggers to hatch.


The package.


The contents of the package. As you can see... this thing even comes with MANUALS(note the 'S'). According to the manual, this thing is guaranteed to live up to 2 years if taken care of properly. Well, it better be considering how much this thing costs!


Packet 1 is the Water Purifier(you'll see it in detail later. Packet 2 contains eggs whereas packet 3 contains food for the little buggers(I refuse to call them monkeys).


First, fill the water till it touches the tip of the highest magnifier.


Use a scissors to cut the packet open since it's sealed air-tigh. Ripping it will just spill everything everywhere and we don't want mess, right? These things look like salt to me. They probably are. What salt, I don't know.


Note to self: Do not drink the water from the aquarium from now on.


Stir for as long as it takes until it dissolves completely in the water. Then leave it aside somewhere facing the North window(no shit, that's what the manual says) for 24 hours.

Till tomorrow after church, folks!

flipping mad

I am flipping mad at myself right now. I am sick again. Yes, I have sore throat again. And Hulk mad, HULK SMASH!!! Mich have a decorative medical record and I think I'm starting to be able to understand how she felt when she used to fall sick day after day back in 'those days'.

So... yeah. If Dr. House is addicted to Vicodine, I'm addicted to Dequadin. At least there's a '-din' some where between the words.

When I'm sick, I would think about the kids in school tomorrow. :-/ I think I'm addicted to seeing Wilson in school(in a totally teacher-student way). I know I'm just 'some guy' in the school but I get most of the humour in my day off these kids. They are wonderful. Really.

that weird feeling

Now that the whole SPM 2005 hooloo-baloo is over, I must admit that I have a strange feeling inside me.

Alright, let's be honest; my results may be pretty good but it's not terrificly impressive. But my parents are pretty darn proud of it(well, it's either they really mean it or they're really good actors) and I know deep inside that it was my best and it's the best results for me, ever.

But why am I kicking myself in the head over the results sometimes? Could it be the Melancholic in me wanting to burst out?

Seriously, what is wrong with me?

Word, word, word, word....and word.